Submissive confessions

Heading back home

pavatii — Mon, 23 Jan 2012 18:10:09 +0000

A business meeting lead me to my old home town this afternoon. Strangely, it doesn’t feel like home anymore. It’s more like a friendly place, ladden with good and not so good memories. I am sitting in the train back home now, impatient to arrive where my heart has found it’s new and true home. There is no sadness or regret but only joy while the the train carries me away. My destiny is waiting for me – my master and husband!

Late Nights and Early Mornings

pavatii — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 11:50:39 +0000

I am in a very good mood today. No wonder: Dom made my start into the day hot and exciting. I was barely awake, felt his warm body pressed to my back. Suddenly, I felt something else: His hard cock that tried to find it’s way into my pussy. My body reacted automatically and arched backwards so as to welcome him. My pussy was wet immediately. And when I finally felt his cock inside me, I was electrified.
Today morning started as good as last night ended. We had a very pleasant evening together, starting in our favorite Pizzeria. We were immersed in discussions about this and that. As so often, I was aware how much we share: So many topics interest both of us, which makes for very inspiring conversations. After our meal, we went to the movies. The old cinema was like a testimonial of past times: It was charming with it’s slightly shappy, old-fashioned carpets, high ceilings and it’s somewhat faded glamour. Close to midnight, we arrived back home. I was horny like hell and had in mind to sit Dom on the couch, rip off his trousers and suck his cock. But before I could do such a thing, Dom took my hand and lead me to our bedroom. He started fervently to rummage trough his “master’s tools”. When he finally found what he was looking for, I was a little shocked: a butt plug. “Oh no”, was my first thought. “I hate that thing!”. On the other hand, I was so horny that I didn’t care much. So it was finally him who made me sit on the couch. He produced the plug and some love balls and commanded: “Put it in!”. I made both tools wet with my tongue and inserted the plug first (yes, I hated it!), then placed the love balls in my pussy (no, I didn’t hate this!). That was not all: Dom placed a gag in my mouth, too. I can’t recall how the events unfolded after that. I just know that I immediately drifted deep into the world of submission. Everything blended together: His beats on my ass, my thighs and even on my breasts (very soft ones – and I liked it). His wet, soft tongue on my pussy that inflicted waves of passion. The scarf around my throat that prevented me from breathing, sometimes more, sometimes less. His warm but stern voice, that called me his slave, his bitch, his slave. His wonderful cock, which I was allowed to lick at some point, and to feel deep in my pussy later. I even liked the butt plug and the love balls, both of which filled me deeply and added to the feeling of being completely at Dom’s mercy. I was flying. No thoughts were able to form in my head anymore. I was flowing in this happy feeling to be owned by him, to serve him and not to reflect about it.

7 Months

pavatii — Tue, 10 Jan 2012 14:11:39 +0000

Today, Dom and I are married 7 months. It’s strange: In one way, our wedding day seems like yesterday. On the other hand, I have the impression that we have known each other forever – or at least for a very long time. Life with Dom has become colorful, passionate, intense and happy like never before.

In a couple of minutes, Dom will arrive at my workplace to drink coffee together. I am a little nervous and excited to see him – just like in the first days. Dom, I am coming..!

Naked

pavatii — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 12:24:08 +0000

After a whole week of wearing my slave’s collar I’ve taken it away today morning because I felt not comfortable wearing it for work. It’s too big and obvious to wear for everyday life. However, I have discovered today morning that I hate not wearing it. I feel naked somehow and there is always the perception that something is missing. I hope to put it back on tonight. Looking forward to it..!

Way

pavatii — Sun, 08 Jan 2012 13:10:56 +0000

Dom played with me all the way trough to the small hours of the morning. More than ever, I feel as his slave. There is something going on right now: I am going my way with Dom into a more complete submission. It is filling me with the deepest satisfaction and happyness. It’s incredible… Dom told me not to think about the whys, but just to accept our relationship and how it develops as what it is. Although surprised at times about myself, I will stick to that advice and simply enjoy it.

Alisha

pavatii — Sat, 07 Jan 2012 16:05:07 +0000

Alisha, yes I would have like to meet you. My Dom was especially looking forward to it. And he would have made me spoil and treat you while he would have watched us. I would have loved to suck your breasts and caress them softly, and to make you crazy by biting your nipples lightly until you moan with desperate pleasure. I would go on by kissing my way down your belly. I would stop right above your pussy and let you wait with anticipation until you would beg me to go on. Softly, I would part your labia and hold them spread. You would feel my breath on your pussy before you would feel my touch. And then, without warning, I would dive into your pussy. My lips would close around your clit. Ever so lightly, I would start to suck on it. Your breath would come in gasps. You would cry and moan, faster and louder now. I would penetrate your pussy with a finger and stimulate a cock penetrating you while my tongue would go crazy on your clit. Your juice would drip out of your pussy, your hips would be rocking forth and back, and you would grab my hair and pull my head closer to your pussy. And then you would explode, accompanied with loud cries of sheer pleasure. Your climax would come in waves and last an eternity. And then, you would finally collapse and nestle close to me, hold me tight, bury your head in my breasts and recover there until the real world would come back to you.

… unfortunately, Alisha, you are not real. Your are an invention by the really naughty Pavati who tried to give a special edge to yesterday’s event. I guess, my Dom will punish me for this and, honestly, I’ve earned it!

Sweet Pain and Pure Lust

pavatii — Mon, 02 Jan 2012 16:15:12 +0000

We’re just back from our New Year’s Eve trip. I am still a little dizzy – and very horny.

So many things happened that I can only write down one or two especially striking moments. Oh yes – literally striking…

It was late in the night. Dom fixed me to a special piece of furniture that allowed me to lean with my upper body on it while my ass was sticking out. And pushed my skirt up with a quick and determined move. Then, he gagged me with some special tool so my cries and moans wouln’t disturb the neighbours. I waited expectantly for what would come. Contrary to my expectations, it was not pain I felt first, but a very smooth touch – like from a feather – on my foot, leg and then my ass. Suddenly, it stopped. For a few seconds, no noise was to be heard. And then, without warning, a lash cut the air, a blow landed on my ass, my skin began to tingle, both from the pain and from excitement. And another stroke announced itself by the buzz in the air. Dom found a rhythm – left, right, left, right. Sometimes, when his blows landed a little above my ass, where the skin is more sensitive, I would cry out in agony. But mostly, I would moan with pleasure. Every stroke catapulted me a little further into this special kind of trance, where pain is transformed into pure lust. I felt myself sink deeper and deeper into it. With every stroke, my submission and Dom’s power over me became more manifested. It was like his beats would inscribe it on my ass. Sometimes, Dom changed lashes. Some hurt like hell. The pain would be like a little stab. Other lashes brought a wonderfully warm pain to my skin. With every stroke, I wanted more, wanted to sink deeper into this haze of pain, wanted him to demonstrate that he ownes me completely. And I became horny like hell. My pussy was wet like hell and it pulsated in the rhythm of the strokes. I don’t know when he stopped or how many beats I’ve received. It must have been about 100. But Dom didn’t simply stop: He announced that there would be ten last beats for me. In a slower, careful rhythm, he stroke me with force. And I enjoyed every single blow and already regretet that these were the last few I would get for now. When it was all over and Dom kissed me tenderly, I felt drugged and dizzy – and just that: HORNY!

On our trip, we met a couple: She a sub like me, he a Dom. Even though we only talked and had some drinks together, it was great to see that there are people like us. It might be difficult to find matching persons to integrate into our play, but at least it is not impossible, as we found out. Who knows, maybe we will meet them again and have a first experience with another couple…

Preparing for New Years Eve Abroad

pavatii — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 15:25:24 +0000

Christmas is over, and 2011 is coming to an end soon. Dom and I are leaving tomorrow morning to enjoy the last days of the year in a major European city, and to celebrate New Years Eve. I can’t wait to be off, just the two of us. Dom has already announced that I will be his slave for the whole time abroad. When I think about it, I am getting nervous and happy and excited… He also talks about going to a fetish party or club and exposing me there. This doesn’t make me especially nervous because I know whatever happens I will be with Dom and we will only do things we both like. So, whatever we are doing and wherever we are going: It’s going to be great fun! And it’s starting already tomorrow evening, I am sure…

2011 was a very special year: I moved in with Dom, we found a bigger apartment (and moved again) and we got married. I often think back to the beginning of our relationship – and whenever I do I am so infinitely happy that it is possible to be together with Dom, to share my life with him, to be so close and in love. It’s no exaggeration to say that this was the happiest year of my life! And the best is: Many more are to come.

After a long weekend

pavatii — Mon, 12 Dec 2011 21:27:33 +0000

Weekends with Dom always pass so quickly! We had taken the Friday off, slept in, enjoyed a yummie breakfast and then drove up all the way to a nice place in the mountains. A magic winter scene welcomed us there and for the first time in the year I felt something like anticipation for Christmas. We enjoyed to break free from every-day life, to spend time outdoors in the dazzling sun, went out, enjoyed delicious food… but what made me really happy was to spend time with Dom, and to feel so very close to him.

It was already late in the night and we were back in our hotel room. The sun, the altidude and maybe some drinks had made us tired. Noththeless, a crazy horniness overcame me all of a sudden. I just had to feel Dom, here and then. Something inside broke free – and free I felt while for once I took the initiative. I don’t know anymore if there was something like a foreplay or if we had just straigh-forward, hard, crazy, raw and hot sex. I can only recall Dom’s moans and that his cock felt rock-hard inside me. For once, I enjoyed the power. I felt that he had crossed the line of control over his own body. He was too far gone already and his body was craving to reach his climax. And me too: I wanted to feel his explosion as the highest and wildest level of lust.

And then he came, accompanied by loud howls and moans and with shocks of ecstasy that rocked his whole body. I was in heaven!

A Never Ending Rainbow

pavatii — Wed, 07 Dec 2011 17:55:07 +0000

I just received a short message from my Dom: “Your love is a never ending rainbow”, he wrote. Wow, those words warm my heart! The feeling to love and to be loved in this unbelievable intensity is so powerful. It’s a feeling I never want to miss again. It’s the essence of my life – he’s the essence of my life. I feel very privileged to experience all this. It seems to me that not many people ever find the love of their lives. But we did! I am falling in love with my Dom every day afresh. Our relationship is both intimate and close. In the same time, Dom surprises me again and again. It’s never boring nor monotonous. Our relationship has many dimensions and is elastic; we both bring in new things and we are curious and interested to explore life in all it’s colors and shades. This means freedom to me! In fact, I never felt more free than I do now. What’s more, I am very happy, very fulfilled. THANK YOU, my love!